Poetry: Bah Bah Yellow Sheep

Happy National Adoption Month. Where adoptees everywhere are working on, have stopped trying in, or are flat-out ignoring the shift in adoption narratives. In particular, international and transracial adoption has proven to be problematic for a few reasons. White Savior Complex, Dysfunctional Family Dynamics, and a host of Attachment Disorders and Abandonment Issues are allContinue reading “Poetry: Bah Bah Yellow Sheep”

Korea Notes: out of control, into growth

I don’t have control issues.do I have control issues? No, no.I mean, I don’t think I have control issues.Do I? The inevitable truth is that, yes my relationship with control in my life causes problems. On my artist palette, there’s some blend between control, anxiety, and isolation that manages to splatter onto my daily canvasContinue reading “Korea Notes: out of control, into growth”

Korea notes: home

The concept of “Home” eludes us. When I think about belonging somewhere, I immediately think about the question “Where is Home for me?” Where is home for me? For a lot of people, “Home is where the heart is” rings true. If that’s the case, then I have a LOT of homes. It’s like homeContinue reading “Korea notes: home”

Jobs I can put my Heart in // I must be Teaching Kindergarten

What do you get when you cross screaming children, rainbow colored everything, stressed out adults, with dinosaurs, pretending to be cats, and snack time? If you said “Kindergarten!” you’re right! If you said “A nightmare.” You’re probably a kindergarten teacher. Just kidding, it’s been a blast working at Maple Bear so far. English kindergarten hereContinue reading “Jobs I can put my Heart in // I must be Teaching Kindergarten”

fwd: update from ESWS

Mother, I have learned enough nowTo know I have learned nearly nothing.On this dayWhen mothers are being honored,Let me thank youThat my selfishness, ignorance, and mockeryDid not bring you toDiscard me like a broken dollWhich had lost its favor.I thank you thatYou still find something in meTo cherish, to admire and to love. I thankContinue reading “fwd: update from ESWS”

Korea Notes : Page Turning

Where do I even start? I’ve always prided myself on agility in times of growth, change, and transitions. Among the ambiguity of change, there’s an urgency to peer through the fog and arrive at a new, beautiful vista. Fog rolls like thunderclouds these days, and boy do I LOVE the storms.

Korea Notes : 8 & 9

Stress has had my keyboard wrapped up. It’s amazing how many thoughts our brain can become obsessed with at the same time, preventing us from focusing on what is really important. I experience this in a couple different ways: in the moment, when I realize that I’ve been worrying about the same things nonstop, andContinue reading “Korea Notes : 8 & 9”

Korea Notes : Week 6

Growth always inspires me. New experiences, learning, and self-improvement are things in life that give me life, but the part about growing that especially pushes me forward is overcoming past struggles. Renewing an old, tired mindset or identifying a destructive pattern that no longer holds me is powerful. An aspect about growth that is somewhatContinue reading “Korea Notes : Week 6”

Korea Notes : Week 4 and 5

This is week five, but it feels like two weeks since my last post. ((EDIT: That’s because it has, oops)) I hit my strides like I belong now. I’ve gotten more connected with my church and lifegroup – a small family that meets very regularly and have made some good friends. I started a weeklyContinue reading “Korea Notes : Week 4 and 5”